I have FINALLY beaten Sue Han. Anddddd, even more amazingly, by 140 points.

This is a proud moment, ladies and gentlemen.

He’s youngish, rather humorous, and kind of attractive. Makes me a little bit sad to be graduating.

But then Jenny pointed out that girls might shamelessly flirt with him. Which is something I’d rather not see. Plus, who could ever live up to P-Rob’s legacy?

I know that that video was a celebration of four years of hard work, and I know that it was made to be funny and cute and to induce laughter. But all I could think about while watching it was how dumb, vapid, and empty those girls seemed.

It wasn’t even because of their silly laughs (I have a far more obnoxious one), or the fact that they rambled, or even said “like” in every sentence. It was how they said it. A combination of that annoying valley girl inflection and the content of which they spoke about. It all made them sound very, very ditzy. 

I dislike dumb girls. And I especially dislike those who think that acting dumb is cute. It’s not. What happened to girls who want to be intelligent?

Intelligence is a desirable trait. Smart is sexy.

that I could go back and clone myself at every one of my birthdays. And then have all 18 Carrie’s hang out in one room and see how they respond to each other.

I’m sure at least a few of them would hate each other. Some, I think, would look up to a couple of the Carrie’s.

Interesting.

Usually when my mom comes into my room to chat, I’m the one who ushers her out the door after a lengthy talk.

But today, we were chatting in my room, and this time, I wasn’t annoyed, frustrated, fed up, or anything. In fact I started to do my work and she got up to leave, but I was the one who wanted her to stay…which is so weird for me.

I think I’m really starting to appreciate her. People tell me all the time how my mom is so “cute” or whatever, and I usually laugh it off. But she actually really is. 

The way she gives me her “life” advice, or tells me what boys to date/marry, or even goes into an impassioned rant about her coworkers. She usually just says the same stuff over and over, but somehow, it’s always funny and interesting how she says it.

I’m gonna miss her. And it’s sad that it took me this long to realize that.

This year has been one of the greatest up-and-down roller coaster rides in our relationship thus far. We’ve definitely had our fair share of conflict, between the college app torture and my anxieties surrounding my future. But you’ve been with me through everything, whether I liked it or not.

I really wish I had been more appreciative of you this year. I know it must have been hard for you—these are our last few months before I leave home and start a new life of my own. I was rebellious (some of it I still feel was warranted), but I still should have been more understanding. I regret not spending more time with you. I regret pushing you away. But most of all, I regret not seeing that you did in fact had good intentions, and that everything you did, you did because you care about me, not because you wanted to sabotage me or jeopardize my future. 

Well, we do have 3.5 months left together before I leave for school. I hope you’re happy :) I know I’ve made you proud, but I want to keep making you proud to be my mom.

Happy Mother’s Day :)